On Kutner's death or "a better yesterday"

So, I don't like to write too much on TV shows.  Yeah, I'll mention Top Chef and Big Fat Loser from time to time, but they serve as fodder...  What's funny is that I didn't even have a TV for a VERY long time...

I'm a big "House" fan.  The characters, the story lines, the thoughts about life...  House himself is a terrific portrayal of "man without filter"...  blah, blah, blah...  And last night's episode came as such a shock to me - the suicide of one of the characters.  Completely unforeshadowed, out of the blue and not unlike the way it happens when we lose someone...  week after week the man is in the show and then he's gone...

Most of you know, I lost my dad in January.  He was in the hospital for a month and I am thankful for being unemployed because it gave me the freedom to spend more time with him than I would have been able to spend had I been working.  When I left him on his birthday, I kissed him goodbye, he told me he loved me and said, "I'll see ya..."  The next morning he was gone...

When I was writing scripts I wrote a short one about a guy working to get his girl back.  The language was rough and I never really worked the script into much of anything.  He went on and on to her about everything he would do if she would come back to him, promise after promise...  she finally spoke and said that there was only one thing she wanted from him...  "anything..." he answered...  it would be hard...  "anything" he answered...  she wanted this,

"I want you to change the past."

In movies, you can do that...  in life, you can't...

You can't re-choose.

You can't un-say.

You can't...

Without beginning to expound on faith and afterlife I can only boil it down like this... 

I want today to be the best yesterday that it can be when tomorrow comes.

-silly